He Resigns
Age, and the deaths, and the ghosts.
Her having gone away
in spirit from me. Hosts
of regrets come and find me empty.
I don’t feel this will change.
I don’t want anything
or person, familiar or strange.
I don’t think I will sing
anymore just now,
or ever. I must start
to sit with a blind brow
above an empty heart.
1960s
The Widow’s Lament in Springtime
Sorrow in my own yard
where the new grass
flames as it has flamed
often before but not
with the cold fire
that closes around me this year.
Thirty-five years
I lived with my husband.
The plum tree is white today
with masses of flowers.
Masses of flowers
load the cherry branches
and color some bushes
yellow and some red
but the grief in my heart
is stronger than they
for though they were my joy
formerly, today I notice them
and turn away forgetting.
Today my son told me
that in the meadows,
at the edge of the heavy woods
in the distance, he saw
trees of white flowers.
I feel that I would like
to go there
and fall into the flowers
and sink into the marsh near them.
1921
After the reserved grief of Anne Sexton’s ‘The Truth the Dead Know’ here are two of my favourite loss poems. I read them when I started writing and transcribed them into a notebook, knowing I would return to them both many times. In a sense it is a reminder to myself to never forget the power of the emotionally direct and tender poem. There is no showy sentimentality here. There is simply feeling.
What strikes me is the surface simplicity, both of language and approach; the power also of the plain statement. In Berryman’s poem there is a sudden shift of focus at the end of the 2nd stanza: “I don’t feel this will change”. In ‘The Widow’s Lament in Springtime’ (at approximately the same position in the poem and acting rather like a 'beat' in a dramatic scene) there is a similar stark statement: “Thirty-five years / I lived with my husband”. There is no theatricality here, just naked emotion; no striving after heroic loss but the simple fact of loss as felt.
I mentioned Berryman’s Dream Songs in an earlier entry in relation to use of the third person strategy that he employs brilliantly and often in the sequence. It is almost impossible to define what Berryman does in these poems. His alter ego, Henry, is part vaudevillian showman, part clown, part tragic-comic protagonist. With ‘He Resigns’ Berryman moves back from all his theatrical tropes and present a very direct and surprising piece. When you encounter it among the other wildly imaginative poems, its simplicity almost makes your heart break.
An interesting nugget for those interested in the long project that was the Dream Songs. Berryman spent some time in Dublin in 1965 and wrote a number of poems from the sequence during his stay in the Emerald place. I always find this surprising given the quintessentially America flavour of the poems. What a strange figure he must have also cut as he read from them on at least one occasion in the capital. The Irish poet John Montague recounts that event in his book of essays The Figure in the Cave and the comic scene of Patrick Kavanagh taking umbrage at some statement made by Berryman and noisily departing the gathering. What I would give to have been a fly on that wall.
Here are some images of Berryman in Ireland from The Big States blog: http://bigstates.blogspot.com/2009/03/john-berryman-in-dublin.html
Here is a clip of Berryman reading Dream Song ‘There Sat Down, Once, A Thing on Henry’s Heart’ which I’m happy to report was recorded during that famous stay in Dublin.