Meeting the Poet
Love, it is certain,
continues till we fail,
Whenever (with your forgiveness) that may be...
– ‘Phoenix
Park’
As we bumped over a pothole
the car made a sudden adjustment veering momentarily off the road. I turned
away from the window. My girlfriend, Paola, was driving. She licked the paper
of a roll-up which she held in her left hand, then glanced at me, a smile
flickering across her lips.
“So, what’s he like? This
Thomas what’s-his-name?”
I recovered the lighter
from the floor and leaned over to light her cigarette. “Very intimidating by
all accounts.”
Paola inhaled, held the
smoke in her lungs for a moment, then exhaled. “Great. At least he lives
somewhere remote.”
We drove deeper into the
mountains. Beyond the rain-streaked window, I saw a burnt-out car rusting on
the hillside. The sky had grown heavy with rain cloud, the slate bowl of the
sky fringed by bronze that was reflected on the surface of the lake down below
us in the valley. It seemed like the perfect stage for a Kinsella poem: an
ancient landscape with its primal weather; the ochre of the decaying car lying
amongst the granite boulders scattered on the mountainside by retreating
glaciers.
In the boot of the Daihatsu
Charade, bubble-wrapped and boxed, were special editions of a poetry anthology on
which I had worked – with Theo Dorgan – as general editor. We had managed to
get the signatures of the nine other section editors, but Thomas Kinsella had
proved elusive. He had recently returned from a visit to America and was
reluctant to travel to Dublin. I volunteered to go to his house in Wicklow to
make the task as painless as possible – or, perhaps more truthfully, that I
would get to meet him.
*
The Kinsellas’ house was hidden
from the narrow country road by a wall of oak and hazel and pinned in from
behind by the steep incline of a large hill, rainwater spilling down its side
in white threads that gathered in a stream at its base. As I lifted the dead
weight of the box of books from the boot of the car, a woman in her early
seventies emerged from the porch with a wry smile. She introduced herself to us
as Eleanor. It was a peculiar feeling seeing her standing there in front of the
old farmhouse in flesh and blood. She had been frozen in my imagination as the
younger woman in the poem ‘Phoenix Park’ who lay “brilliant with
illness, behind glass”.
That poem had
been written long before, but I had heard she had been ill again for many
years. I was surprised by her skittery vitality as she darted to the boot and
lifted the smaller, second box. I followed her into the large, open-plan living
room and placed the box onto the mahogany table at its centre. She joked that
Tom was in his garret and would be down shortly, then whisked Paola away to
help her make lunch.
I stood in the
room for a time alone in the gloom of rain-light that seeped in from a window,
which stretched almost the entire length of the gable. Above me were exposed
rafters and the vault of the ceiling. Along the walls bookcases, and a stark
ink drawing of a black crow, an illustration by Louis le Brocquy from The
Táin. On the opposite wall there was a Navaho wall hanging, its
intricate pattern of earthen-coloured lines reminding me, strangely, of a
schematic for an electronic circuit board.
'The Tain' illustration Louis le Broquay |
As I began to
take the books from the boxes a man appeared in the doorway, instantly
recognisable from the photograph on the back of the Collected Poems: the
thick glasses and grey beard, “the dry, down-turning mouth” on which one could
never imagine a smile forming. I was surprised, though, by Kinsella’s physical
size as he stood there in a leather waistcoat. The rumours of his decline
seemed premature. He held out his hand and simply introduced himself as Tom,
then sat down at the table. It appeared he wasn’t a man interested in small
talk.
I opened the
first book on the title page. He took an elegant silver-nibbed pen from his
inside pocket and signed, with total concentration, in a spiky hand. There was
an awkward pause before I opened the next one and he signed again. We continued
in this ritual for perhaps half an hour, the silence of the room punctured only
by the sound of rain tapping on the window and the occasional laughter that
echoed down the hallway from the kitchen.
Just as Tom had
finished signing the last book, Eleanor craned her head around the doorframe
and announced cheerily that lunch was ready. Tom seemed a little surprised that
I was being invited to stay. As I gathered up the books and put them back into
the box, I was overcome with the need to tell him that it was reading his poem
‘Mirror in February’ in school that really got me interested in poetry. I
realised I may not have another chance so I said, “If it hadn’t been for
‘Mirror in February’ I’d probably be doing something different with my life.
It’s the poem that made me want to write.”
After the
minutes of rain measured silence I thought my confession must have sounded
ridiculous, all the practiced eloquence in the car on the way to this encounter
falling apart into a blurted platitude. He stood back with what seemed like
genuine surprise, and smiled, “Go way. Really. Tell me.” He waited expectant
for me to provide a bigger explanation. Despite having read most of his work, I
suddenly felt self-conscious and tongue-tied, as though the weight of posterity
on me was too great in that room. I could only muster, “It was the first poem I
encountered that was written from a world I recognised.”
As we stood
there beside the imposing table, he seemed to relax a little, began to discuss
the choices certain editors had made. This had been a difficult part of the
process of putting the book together. Theo and I had wanted all the editors to
meet up but because the logistical difficulties involved, we decided to send
lists around to each so there was no overlap in poems, or over-representation
of a given poet.
Tom had chosen
to make his selection from the 1930s. He spoke about the failure of Irish poets
to grasp modernism. Despite his abrasiveness, at times, on the subject, I
detected a sense of isolation on his behalf. No Irish poet had embraced
elements of the Modernists more than Kinsella and his profile, it seemed to me
at least, had suffered as a consequence due to his work's apparent
experimentalism and ‘difficulty’.
He grew silent
for a moment, then mentioned how he had grappled with whether to select
anything by Brian Coffey. He put it to me bluntly: “Do you think I should’ve
included him?”
I hadn’t
expected that. Again, I had a chance to say something incisive, make an
impression on my poetic mentor. But I’d never read Coffey and knew for some
reason that to admit as much would meet with his disappointment, or perhaps
even disapproval. I answered with an attempt at authority: “Well, some of his
work is quite interesting, but I think your choice of Devlin was better.”
He nodded. I
suspected my opinion didn’t matter to him, but it was surprisingly generous
gesture to pretend that it did.
At that moment
Eleanor reappeared in the doorway. I was relieved that my knowledge would not
be tested any further through more discussion. Tom and I followed her into the
kitchen where we found Paola sitting at the pine table with a relaxed smile,
and a mug of tea in her hand.
*
As we drove home in the darkness, Paola and I
were quiet. I thought of the car out there somewhere in the darkness, rusting a
little more in the rain, the boulders still fixed where they had come to rest
so long ago, infinitesimally more weathered and rounded. In a way, it was an
apt image for the encounter with the poet; his solemn work with the hint of
something ancient and immoveable; my dislocation in such a landscape; my
fumbling in his formidable presence.
There
was the poem I wished I had talked to him about: a poem about Eleanor, sick in
a hospital in the Phoenix Park. Over lunch all four of us had talked for
several hours about their time in America and, at Tom’s insistence, religion, a
topic that seemed to fascinate him despite his own equivocations on the subject. (I was a practicing Buddhist at the
time which he seemed to find curious.) Then, sitting around the table by the bright pink Aga stove, Eleanor
then told us about an illness which left her in a state of near-paralysis for
several years. After a time, she had recovered unexpectedly and completely.
I thought of all Tom’s probings and doubts as we sat there in the bright, airy space drinking tea. I remembered the Navaho rug in the dark living room, its coloured grids and pattern of connections – that phrase in ‘Phoenix Park’ about “the tissue of order”. But the poem was about more than order. It attempts to answer the question: “What was in your thoughts… saying, after a while, / I write you nothing, no love songs, anymore?”
As we left the Kinsella’s house in the
twilight, Eleanor and Tom stood in the bell of porch-light waving us off.
Eleanor had told us to call in again if we were in the area. I knew we wouldn’t
– or I wouldn’t have the courage.
The lights of Dublin spread
out before us as Paola and I descended from the foothills towards the city, the
bay a dark entrance scooped out of the grid of streetlights and housing
estates. In the boot of the car, two boxes of books signed and ready to be
delivered into the world. I had finally met the poet who first gave me the
shock of excitement that words on the page can make as they struggle to “elicit
order from experience.”
Soon, Tom and Eleanor would also pack up their life in Wicklow and leave that primal place to return to their second home in Philadelphia, both now seeming to exist as real people in my memory, but also, somehow, mythic figures frozen in a frieze in the porchlight - 'brilliant behind glass'.
Galway, 2004
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